has someone from the moment i was born cursed me or something was i a child of darkness because everything lately is just shit im sorry for swearing on here but its all i can say ...i rock up to school only to find out im failing not 1 but 3 fucking subjects which ive been working my butt off for but no one realizes no one at all atleast i try put in the effort unlike some who sit around and smoke and dont even get fucking busted...where am i going why is this all happening especially to me of all chicks in the world why cant shit ever happen to someone like paris hilton its just fucked nah money buys her way out of everything ...but money isnt the answer for everything neither is love ....if either of these dont then what is?.....fuck friends too esp when they turn there back on you after all you have done mainly because of katie afterall i must have some invisible sign hey how are you im a loser and a user ready to be at your service...noone understands me i dont think i even understand myself .......what about love ..what is it??? can someone please tell me because im never going to know i really need a bf because im really going crazy pple comming left right center at me with all there problems with love life have they ever stoped to think what about me? how do i feel how am i meant to know ....if i did i wouldnt be here id be out partying and having fun like normal 19 yr olds do on friday and sat nights dont you think??? but theres one for you im not normal my life just keeps getting more drowned out and blurry everyday im so sick of this life i just wanna scream how did this happen to me?